Thread:Addfire/@comment-36558623-20181016160958/@comment-26234016-20181016172047

Hey!

I don't know how long my speech will be in return, I doubt I can match the impressive wordcount you tallied. But to start, thank you so much for your kind words! It's really warming to see that I made such a big impact on someone, honestly. I can't believe that my strange little word reviews and overuse of the exclamation point would have such an effect...

And you're right. Everyone is gone. Or, not really, but most people definitely aren't here. Starru (or EclipsaButterfly, or SnowySilver, or whatever) hasn't been in sight for months. Rex is incommunicado. I have no clue where Unreal went. As for the others, well, we still keep a watchful eye on the wiki, but from a distance, on Discord.

But why would I leave?

Well, I don't... really know? I suppose I'll try to give a lot of examples of things that might have contributed, and let you look back and decide for yourself.

The biggest one is the looming possibility of the End of Forums. It gave this sense of impermanence, like I'd be obsolete soon, you know? I'm a Forums mod, I did almost all my reviews from the Forums. Discussions feel alien to me. So that's a big one.

The game's changing. With the Coven update, which I couldn't get because it cost money, there was suddenly a whole new dimension to the game that I couldn't really deal with! I honestly had no ability to cast effective judgement on coven-specific roles.

Another one was, well, I'd see a new role and try to review it, but see that someone else already had. I felt like I wasn't needed here. Y'all've been making some great role reviews, so I felt like my reviews weren't needed. Almost every other mod has a 'thing'– Zed does his mainspace, etc. Mine isn't needed. So why should I stick around?

But honestly, you're right. I should keep at it. I don't really have an excuse for leaving, I just got overwhelmed and cut my losses.

So thanks for messaging me, I'll at least try to get back into it, stretch my wings, and see if I can still fly.