Thread:Addfire/@comment-36558623-20181016160958

i guess i should say something else...

hi, i'm didthisformakingroles. you may know me as didthis. I went inactive around January of this year, but now I'm back under a different name and with a very different personality. I've changed a lot since joining this wiki and looking back at the stuff i did. jesus christ, my spelling was bad. and i did a lot of cringy things. well after coming back, I've seen that the wiki has changed drastically. people who were once very active people are now just memories, and people who were newcomers are either inactive or the only active people left. Where did everyone go? did they just grow up? Did I miss something?

I've noticed that you aren't very active either, actually. You haven't made many edits since I made this new profile. Which is sad. I joined the wiki under three accounts, the first to make roles, the second to re-brand myself, and the third because I liked the wiki and got back into tos. The first time, you were the very first person to notice my role. The Actor, which, looking back on it, was a cluster-fuck mess that a person who has never played tos would reject. However, you were very kind, gave me constructive criticism, and encouraged me to join the wiki. To this day, with almost every role I review, I keep those things in mind. After that, I took on what you said, but being a 12 year old idiot I just kind of made the first Username I could think of and starting vomiting all the ideas when I had them. You were still very kind though. You helped me at every turn, you were always there for suggestions and support. Remember my first RP? Remember how it didn't just fall flat, it fell into a bottomless abyss? Desert and Sondz almost snapped at me, but you defended me, even when everyone there could see it was beyond just an awful mess. so... thanks.

under my second profile, RainyPlace, I wanted to be active again, but be smart this time. Not just regurgitate roles and kinda just be an annoying pesterer. So this time, I started with a role review. I looked at it with a critical eye and gave it my best shot. Later that day, you came to my wall and personally greeted me and complimented me on my review. You didn't know I was didthis, you just thought I was a brand new user. You still were super nice though. STILL. I went inactive after that, due to not really caring about the wiki, but just being there to clear some things up about me. so... even then you were nice.

but now, under this newer profile, I have been the most active yet. Didthis was my account for almost a year and I didn't pass 500 edits, but I have with this account in a little over two months. I've made countless role reviews, I suggest things about the changes to the wiki, and am an active participant in TOTM. It's great. I'm finally doing things right, helping people with roles, helping the wiki, giving my opinion about changes.

but like.... everyone is gone. I've seen new faces but few old ones, Rubik and maybe Jamie are the only people I really remember. The faces I had grown to respect and socialize with like Vert, Hawaiin, Rex, Ghostly, Unreal, Starru.... vanished or barely active.

what happened? where is everyone? I wanted to have a fresh start, to do what I didn't before, to be what I wasn't. but... i can't if everyone's gone. I did it anyway, I have solidified myself as a new "member" of this community, but... i just wish that I could see some of the old faces, you know?

and.... i never got a greeting from you this time. I check Contributions and you haven't even made an edit since I got here. why? You used to be a mascot for the wiki, the nicest person and an active role-reviewer, you introduced me and gave me the ropes to the wiki. The second time you had even bigger welcoming arms, and I didn't even take them.

where are you?

it's fine if you aren't active anymore. it's fine if you don't reply, or, fine if you don't see this. i just wanted to leave the message. if you happen to and are interested enough to leave a reply, I'm glad to hear it! I hope we can reconnect over old memories and people, and I'd love to hear what's been going on with you. but, uh, if you don't then... that's fine too, it'd be sad, but, who am i to judge, it's up to you.

so yeah... inb4 8,000 